THE WOMAN IN THE MIRROR

It's the last day of the year and in a few hours we will be in the year 2010. Wow it seems like just a few weeks ago we were preparing for 2009, where did the time go? The tragedy is that I'm no further this year than the last. A whole year has past and I have accomplished very little. So yesterday I set my computer on itunes to listen to some music as I cooked, I was intending to listen to Cece Winans "Throne Room" At the end of the first song I was expecting to hear the next on the list but to my surprise Michael Jackson's "Man In The Mirror" interrupted my worship experience. I stop what I was doing and sat by the computer to listen to the words, to my shock the song was saying just about what I was feeling. The day before I told a friend that I have to make a decision to do something different in order to have a different experience than the one I'm experiencing now. Well, I replayed the track a few times and pondered these phrases "No message could have been any clearer, If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make a change." Another phrase that spoke to me was, "when you close your eyes you close your mind." I realized that by closing my eyes to what God has purposed for me to do ,I was also closing my mind to His  voice and leading. That was my conformation to move forward into 2010 if God will it. Can you imagine Michael Jackson speaking to me through his music, well he did and I'm taking it seriously. Well I could go on and on, but I want to encourage you my sisters if you listen keenly for the Father,  He will speak to you through whatever or whomever He wishes.
I decided to take a look at the woman in the mirror, and I didn't like the one that was looking back at me and so I'm making a change.  I'm going on a journey in a few hours, a journey of trust.  Trusting God wholly opens up the mind and the eyes to every conceivable possibility.  I learned that trusting others more than The Father and His Holy Spirit can be detrimental to my spiritual direction, it closes up any possibility of clear direction. This is a difficult journey because the decisions I will make will seem strange and out of the norm for me. I have decided to be me, the authentic me, the me I lost touch with when I decided to lean on my own understanding and not acknowledge God in all my ways. (Proverbs 3:5-6) I'll let you know how things are going as they progress in my journey of leaning and depending on the only one who knows what's best for me. My prayer for you my sisters is that you too will make a decision to trust the one who knows you and loves you with an everlasting love. Blessings to you all.